What is the use of a book, without pictures or conversations?
I don’t remember quite well what made me fall in love with The Netherlands. I know for sure that for many years we were thinking to try something else and things arranged in such a way that we’ve visited the country after a hot holiday in Turkey and the 27 degrees came like a heaven breeze in that July evening when we’ve started our wander around Amstel station. I still remember the streets from the neighborhood, the great place where we had the usual “lunch-diner”, the smile of the blond girl and the tasty beer at the park’s corner. I think that in the end what made me feel so much as at home was the easy feeling of living, the exact feelings I used to have while being a kid, at my parents house. And here I am still, after 2 years filled with home sicknesses, happiness and freedom. The first thing I felt when we’ve entered the hotel apartment on Amstel, near Rembrandt square, was how the burdens I’ve gathered by years slowly crawled into the river.
But what made us choose Haarlem? The day while visiting the windmill, the nicest tour guide ever, the guy from Harlem – USA or maybe the spring flowers from the hotel room in a cold November day? Or simply the fact that finally I could apply the dream of moving into a smaller city, exiting the “need for speed” cities, leaving behind the neighborhoods which suck energy as Dracula sucks blood? Time moves so slowly now, in a rhythm I like, there’s so much time in one day as I never had since I grew up. In one day I can rearrange the entire furniture, visit a museum, see a movie, go for a beer.
Everything is most of the times colorful. Sometimes it feels like I’m a sort of a Alice in Wonderland, discovering each time parts that I never knew they can exist in ones spirit.
I wonder if I’ve been changed in the night? Let me think. Was I the same when I got up this morning? I almost think I can remember feeling a little different. But if I’m not the same, the next question is ‘Who in the world am I?’ Ah, that’s the great puzzle!
*pictures taken in my first year in NL
*quotes from ” Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland” by Lewis Carroll